I'm gonna start a revolution

To my dearest darling

2008-12-16T08:01:31Z

You have lost you charm and glamor. I am so proudly over you, your bullshit lies, and your false image. Never again will I be so naive. If you love the lie, your love is a lie. Everything about you became a glorified lie. I am no longer captivated by your falsified fairytale. Thank you for setting me free.

Goodbye to an old me.

haizydaze89 @ 2008-07-04T15:29:00

2008-07-04T19:30:33Z

I've come to a roadblock and I just don't know what to do anymore. It's time for a change but I'm not so willing to let go of the past. This is truly tearing me apart inside.

Good times

2008-03-15T09:36:30Z

I had THE BEST day with Christopher today. We hung out, got ice cream, played on the internet, played with my camera, then ate dinner and watched a movie. Damn I missed that kid. We practically hung out for 8 hours.. haha jesus

wait.. im in college right?

2008-01-27T21:20:46Z

can never escape high school drama folks.. bahaha oh your immaturity is purely delightful. I only blog about it to always and forever cherish this moment in time.

lozer

2007-09-12T17:26:09Z

omgazz im getting my social skillz back. haha i get so antisocial sometimes then im like "what the hell's wrong w/ u amanda, TALK TO PEOPLE" haha then i do.. and now im happeee. new friends =]

Archery rulez

Nothing compares

2007-09-07T01:19:54Z

Love love love love love love.

¿Por que?

2007-08-06T06:01:12Z

Why? Why is it that everyone has ugly noses?? The only men with cute noses are UGLY.
Why am I so annoyed with noses anyway? Why am I up at 2 am?
Oh right.. I know why.

La la la LADY

2007-08-02T21:54:56Z

blood drawn, 3 shots, and violation.. uggg the ob/gyn is no fun.. but the people at the health department are nice and funny. saw too many rednecks pregnant.. lots of little children. I'm glad my mom came with me. =]

Don't mind me, I just watched Preminition.

2007-07-31T02:27:32Z

Amanda, you're stupid. Amanda, stop liking boys you can't date. Amanda, get over him. AMANDA!!!! You are throwing your life down the drain! Ghod I'm nervous about visiting the OBGYN.... fuckkk. Ah if only perfection could be bottled up and given to your next boyfriend then this wouldn't bother me so. GHOD I need out of Gastonia BAD! The horrible selection of men in this town results in me drooling over anyone that's better than okay. Rawr.. Why does everyone have to suck so bad?

**ramble ramble ramble...**

none really.

2007-07-27T02:53:37Z

I noticed that late at night, my emotions get mixed up. I tend to have feelings for people I would otherwise not give a crap about. My sister told me about her problems with her roomie and I felt like she was talking about me. Kinda weird, her roomie and me and quite alike. Ah not to worry. I tend to talk in less than informational sentences on lj. I apoligize for this inconvenience. Oh well. My goal: to have as much fun as possible before summer ends. With whom? That is none of your concern. Although, I'm worried one of my good friends may be following my not-so-good path I am taking. I hope everything turns out okay for her.

I'm reading this book for class. It's pretty good. I haven't zoned out once yet. I'm amazed.

To end the rambling, I will shut up. =]

haizydaze89 @ 2007-07-26T01:42:00

2007-07-26T05:43:18Z

I make a horrible liar. And I'm easily used.

scraped knees are easier to mend than this

2007-07-22T04:05:54Z

There are so many things on my mind right now:

-my dad and his mind frame (doesn't even know why the hell my family is pissed off at him and disowned him)
-my mom and her mental health (lets point the finger at mom shall we? place the blame on her and not the convicted felon locked up in jail)
-my physical health (damn hips, mom says its most likely a virus since she had it last week)
-my former friends (they all don't give a shit about me, surprisingly, the feeling is mutual)
-my soon-to-be former friends (seems like they won't give a shit either once school starts)
-orientation (I didn't get my pack in the mail and now I'm totally lost)
-math placement (fuccckkkk haven't taken the online placement test like i should have)
-where this is going (outlook: hazy)

There's just too much going on and not much to do about it. I'm really stressed out and this is taking a toll on my mental health. Hopefully most of this will blow over in the next month, but where I stand now, there's too much shit to deal with. My dad is still a felon and an idiot and my mom is still unemployed and uninterested. The only friends that matter I know I will keep. As for the rest, so long. People disappoint me. I must learn to get over this and move on. Hasta NEVER old life. Hola college!

no mo vacation

2007-07-08T22:35:14Z

I'm home now. I wish I wasn't. I want to stay on vacation in PA for the rest of summer. I loved being away from this boring sappy life. Working all the time and not having my best friends in town blows the shit out of summer. Lack of fun. But vacation was great! We went to the zoo, saw aaaaall my family from up there, did touristy things, wedding, yadda ya.. Flew in an airplane (well 4) for the first time.. NICE. I think I need one of my ovaries removed because every hott boy I've seen, I've had to text Kaitlin, Natalie, and Manuel telling them how much I wanted to bang him. Oh and let me tell you, walking through the Atlanta airport alone, I saw atleast 10 bangworthy boys.. Haha ohh midcycle. I just need to keep it in my pants.

WHOREMOANS!!!

But I'm happy.. the happiest I've been all summer given the circumstances. Coming home to the shithole just kinda pisses me off. Atleast I have Johnjohn and Gracie now. =]

New Found Love

2007-06-27T02:47:52Z

So I could have sworn by the eyes of my future children that if I upgraded Bearshare, I would just be upgrading the adware on my computer. Well I decided to upgrade for the first time in three years (yes count them, I was actually behind a lot from version 4.6.2 to 6.1).

I am in love with the new Bearshare. It gave me a whole new reason to enjoy life and being illegal.

?????

2007-06-25T05:30:48Z

So I'm in my room, getting naked for a shower, there are about 4 moths in my room, no biggie.

After my shower, walk back into my room. No lie, 50 moths flying around in my room.

I nearly shit myself.

gili

2007-06-24T05:00:44Z

the last post amuses me. i bleed.

umm.. so yeah, yesterday (technically) was my birthday.. and gay cole didnt wish me a happy one..
so fuck him! =X Oh skeez.

Hoh well, I don't give a shit! LEAVING SOON! BYE!!!

I love being a girl

2007-06-22T00:38:10Z

Be bitchy > blame it on PMS
A few days later, lie and say you're on your period.

Excuses bitchiness and mood swings!

Except for the fact that I'm becoming somewhat intollerable.
People just irritate me.

the whore moans

2007-06-21T01:56:20Z

I think something terribly bad has happened.
Mom talks bring me back to reality.
I'm a whore.

6th sense

2007-06-18T02:58:18Z

work is tiring as hell, but alteast there is some good gossip. There were like 40 pets boarding this weekend. I wanted to shoot myself. It's pretty pathetic when the past three days, all I've dreamed about is work. For real, someone just shoot me.

I like boys. They excite me. Christine is proud of me. I miss that girl. **rain**

My brain is fried.

I'm excited for college.

Sorry I'm a rambler.

Good Citizen

2007-06-07T17:59:07Z

I called to report someone littering.. I feel good about myself.

reminder

2007-06-04T18:41:58Z

I am so stoked that graduation is in less than a week. HELL YES! Life is soo good.

haizydaze89 @ 2007-05-29T23:51:00

2007-05-30T03:54:21Z

Chorus concert was good.. graduation is coming up fast. 3 days left of real school. Dear lord.

Ode to government money

2007-05-19T03:00:21Z

I basically have a full ride to NC State now. Thank the Lord. Hallelujah! AMEN!

Just have a $613 loan for each year that I have to pay back after I graduate. What a random number.

Life is sweet to me.

In the past week..

2007-05-18T01:39:24Z

So far I have:

taken two AP tests
Gone to the mae, relient k, and sherwood concert
gone to prom
gotten a room mate assigned
fixed friendships
led too many guys on
been content with my life

Counting down the days till graduation like it's going to make it come any quicker.

Definitely not stoked about working the weekend.

WISE Village

2007-05-07T20:28:40Z

DUDE! I AM SO STOKED! I got accepted into the WISE Village at NC State!!! WOOO!!!! I coulda sworn I wasn't bc I hadn't received a letter from them when they said they were mailing them but I got an email today saying they were pleased to tell me I have been accepted into their village. DUDE! Today is such a good day!